Closing shift today..
Work was good I guess..
Although my legs were sore by the end of the shift..
But it was overall okay..
No blur sotong except for myself..
Haha kidding..
It's almost a month that our colleague left for Metro..
But it felt as if she left for so long..
Although we saw her once or twice and even chat with her on the phone..
But I guess she is really not happy and misses us alot..
Off day tomorrow..
Gonna stay home and rest I guess..
Due for brows session but..
I guess I'll go on Friday before dinner..
Missing A already..
Although he has went to bed..
We had a short chat before he went to bed..
He was such a sillypie..
Although he is Bus IC tomorrow but he insisted on waiting for me to go home..
Partially I think because it was raining..
Thank You love :)
So sweet..
Appreciate it so much..
And only he appreciates my beauty, inside and out..
Good or bad..
He likes me for who I am..
Thank You A..
I love you so much <3
Good Night..
Sweet dreams..

Off day today..
Supposed to go back to return my graduation gown..
But after lunch, I fell asleep because of headache :(
Woke up, showered and got ready to go meet parents for dinner at JE..
Met ZJ & WY on the LRT..
They were on the way back home..
Mini catchup on the train..
Parted and went to JE..
Went window shopping and trying of clothes..
Dinner and more shopping..
Went home with ice cream from M & S..
A has reached home too..
Gonna return the gown tomorrow..
And of course meet A..
Good Night my love..

Just got home..
Feeling ultimate drained..
Maybe because of the literal drain..
But yeah..
Off day tomorrow again..
Which is good I guess..
Won't be meeting A because his gonna go dinner with his friends..
He was feeling kinda down because his BMT friends graduated from SCS..
Sigh..
Wish he could get over it soon..
Seems like 6 months is not enough..
I guess nothing will ever be enough..
Just hope he could get over it slowly..
And eventually it wouldn't bother him as much as it is now..

It's late at night..
A has went to bed..
Cramps are back..
Sigh..
Shit this..
It's gonna go on forever I guess..

End work..
Closing shift today with 20 cartons..
Only did about 10-12 cartons I guess..
Or maybe more I can't recall..
The rest were the small cartons which HW did I guess..
Got some tiny cuts and scratches from the boxes..
On my way home..
A said his brother and cousin going for a buffet which cost $100 :/
Asked if I'm keen..
Gosh..
No..
And I'm praying hard he is not going to be going..
That's gonna be almost all of our budget for the month..
Feeling super duper drained..
And A went to bed already..
Wished he was still awake..
At least till I reached home..
But I guess he was really very very tired..
Sigh..
Hope it's because he is exercising in camp..
If he is not..
I honestly have no idea why he is so tired though..
I miss him..
We talk way less than we used to..
It's mid week..
Gonna meet him on Saturday I guess..
Hope things will be better..
Really feel sad, moody and lonely..
Which is something I don't get all the time.. Well maybe sad and moody..
But not lonely for sure..
Walking home..
All by myself..
It's dark and cold..
It's gonna rain..
Lightning lights the red sky up..
It's so windy..
It's scary..

New BTO launch this afternoon..
Together with SBF..
Thankfully the Sembawang project is not on the location we are looking for..
Please wait for at 1.5 years more okay? Please..
Hopefully by then A & I can apply..
The plot of land behind my place is gonna have 3 projects upcoming..
Obviously I won't move just across the street but..
Starting to feel sad because the forest would be gone..
Sis is gonna be even more upset because her view is affected..

Starting to miss A already..
Sigh..
Must be PMS..
That's why..
Sigh..
Off day today so was thinking about my 21st..
Although it's a long way to go but I was thinking if I should hold one..
Guess I will at the end of the day..
Venue is gonna be one major problem..
Sigh..
Can't please everyone..
So I'll just please myself..

Snapped..
Sometimes why do people even have to try so hard to be what other people want?
Why can't they be themselves?
Have you ever asked, what or who do you live for?
We lived like what people want us to be..
But have we ever lived for ourselves?
Showing what people wanna see..
We often forget about who we really are..
Who we wanna be..

It's so cold..
The wind blows..
She walks through the cold wind alone..
The leaves rustled through..
Cold wind cuts her face..
She sees a tiny hut..
Walks in..
There was a fireplace..
Freezing, she was drawn to the flame..
She puts more wood in..
The blaze grew..
From her pocket, two freezing hands reached..
Feeling the warmth, she falls asleep..
Thankful to the flame in her dreams..
She hugged and danced with the glowing light..
Feeling grateful and lucky she met the light..

Met A today after lunch at the MRT Station..
Went back to my grandparents' place..
Run some errands and headed to La La's place..
Slacked and watched movies while eating  chips..
It was a lazy afternoon with A..
But I enjoyed his company..
Felt so cozy, as if it was our own home..
Went to Vivo City for dinner..
Advance celebration for Cousin J..
After dinner we went to walk around and shopped abit..
Tried 2 tops and a dress..
Eventually fell in love with a crop top..
Wanted to get it in black and blue..
But A said we suppose to save money & I got too many clothes so only can buy 1..
I was so sad.. :(
Was throwing abit of temper because I PMS..
He was trying to make sure I'm not mad..
I guess I was just annoyed..
But by the time I got home I was fine..

Thank You A for Everything..
Thanks for today too :)
I know you are just caring for me..
And our pockets..
So as to us buying things we need and not things we want..
Hope by the time I wanna buy this again, they will still be available..
Else.. I'm really unlucky..
Because everytime I wanna repurchase, the item gets discontinued! >:(
Sigh..
Destiny I guess..
A went to bed already..
Working tomorrow afternoon shift so it's not that bad..
Closing though..
Guess I won't be shopping for a good while for now..
Working in the fashion industry doesn't help because
you see the trend moving but your wardrobe is just stuck in the past..

Good Night..
I love you A..
Missing you already..

Vesak Day today..
Off day & headed to meet A for lunch..
Had KFC :X
Oooops..
A decided that he wanted some cold dessert because of the weather..
Went opposite and got Mango Snow Ice..



















Not too bad I guess because the ice didn't melt as fast as normal ones..
But the sauce was a little too sweet & just mangoes..
Usually others have popping boba..
But it's okay..
Headed home & dinner was just bad..
Made up for it by having magnum ice cream :P
Sinful..
Need to start working out man :(
Bright side: Meeting A again tomorrow :)
Yippie!

So..
Have been working for the past 4 days..
Today.. Ended shift slightly later..
Have been doing cashiering also for the past 4 days and I'm scared I'll do something wrong.. :/
It's been awhile since I've done cashiering but..
Hope everything will be okay..
Was very busy due to some promotions..
Maybe also because of PMS, feeling very drained..
Customers behaviour also..
But I felt happy none the less..
This job satisfaction can never be replaced..
Each job is different but so is each individual..
I love this job..
And I will cherish the time I have with this job..

Was on the way home and A said he could have a early off day..
He asked me to choose a date..
Told him that N and WX was planning to have dinner together..
Asked if he would wanna join us..
But due to some reasons he wouldn't be joining..
Baby..
Please trust yourself and others..
Everything is gonna be alright..

I hate how I am as a friend sometimes..
重色轻友..
Sigh..
It can never be changed..
Also a workaholic..
Sorry but not Sorry A..
This is me..
You should know by now..
If my store needs help and I can help,
I'll definitely help..

This morning A wished me Happy 520..
I didn't know he knows..
I totally forgotten..
So sweet when he wished me..
Thank You A for remembering :)
Love it when he is a gentleman or do these small little cute acts..
Gives our relationship a little more spice..
Less mundane,
Less routine..

To my Dearest A:
520! <3
1314!

886

Why is it always me?
Just because we always keep quiet doesn't mean you can take us for granted..
I hate this..
Your attitude is so so so unwanted and unneeded..
To be honest, I don't see what you have contributed apart from financials..
I'm sick of this..
I don't need any of this..
I wanna leave..
Can I go?
Nah, it wouldn't happen..
You think they will let you go so easily?
Dream longer,
It wouldn't happen..
Face it..
All you can do is keep silent and cry all you want..

Graduation Day!
Finally after 3 years, I'm graduating.
Thank You everyone who came today just to witness this milestone of mine..
This lovely bouquet was from A..




















I know it's not cheap..
But thank you..
As long as you're happy, I'm happy..
Thank You for the card too :)












1st card from you :)
It is very memorable & I'm very glad you are here today to witness this moment..
It really really means a lot to me..
I appreciate it..
From the bottom of my heart, Thank You A! <3

And here is the bouquet from Mummy La La..




















As expected, she bought something for me..
I've told her not to buy anything but..
Oh well..
Thank You for rushing down after your meeting..

Didn't manage to take any photos with the lecturers except for my PEM..
Sigh..
Oh well..
Took a couple of shots with some of my friends..
Thank You ZJ for the gift & card!
Left NYP at around 8pm & headed to U.d.d.e.r.s because La La wanted dessert..
Ordered some chocolate with alcohol & salted caramel..





















Not a sweet tooth so salted caramel wasn't as good to me..
Dropped A & Lala at the MRT stations before we headed home..
Thank You everyone who your wishes & heart felt congratulations!
Now that this journey is over..
This ending is now a new beginning..

Finally I can post pictures..
No idea why previously the images uploaded would turn blank instead..
Woke up at 7am & got ready to meet A at TP MRT..
Met him at 9am & the silly one was there wayyyyyy too early..
Headed off for Diamond Dash & proceed to deposit our bags first..
Got a number tag for our bag & so coincidentally the number was 223..
My date of birth hahah..
We went into the hotel and since we were early, we decided to take pictures at the photo booth first..
There was a queue but it moved rather quickly..
Took 2 shots and headed off to the starting point..
It wasn't 10am yet but we were allowed to go up..
I guess it's because it was just a "fun run" because it's the couple's category..
Went up to the 17th floor..
The view was amazing & they provided us water..
Took a couple of shots before heading down..
It took us less than 15 minutes to get up & down in total..
Collected our medals & refreshments before we head back inside..
Took the photos from the photo booth before I queued for the free manicure service by Jean Yip Group..
The nail polish the used were super fast drying..
Was done within 10-15 minutes..
Although there was a queue but it moved pretty quickly too..
Thanks to the hands of the professionals..
Super happy with the nail color :)
Picked a soft pink with slight glitter..
Perfect for graduation tomorrow..




















Headed off to collect our bags & left for lunch..
Was quite early because we ended pretty early :)
Took a slow walk back to TP MRT station & took a train to City Hall MRT..
Took our time to walk to Suntec City & changed up first before shopping awhile..
Went to Keisuke Ramen for lunch :)
A got what he wanted & hope this would satisfy him for at least 1 month :X













Today we tried their gyoza & they are juicy!













Not too dry or hard unlike some other places :X
Also tried their green tea cola (friend recommended to us)




















And it was unique!
Seems like it's their own product which you won't be able to get from outside..
Paid the bill & went to DG to participate in an event..


Commit To Love : Save Mummy



For more information, do visit their website: http://bigbigheart.sg/

I chanced upon this through Instagram. Having friends who came from families that have been through domestic abuse, I really wanted to be part of this event.
After speaking to A, he was supportive of this event & we decided to head down together..

Headed off to Jurong West for dinner with A's family as well as one small family of the extended family..
Hahaha..
Thanks big bro for sending me home :) Was a ultimate control freak with A..
Sorry Baby :(
Because it's graduation tomorrow and the boy wanted to get me bear and flowers..
However, they are expensive and we should be saving money whenever we can..
I should just let him do whatever that makes him happy..
I love you A..
I'm sorry..
I appreciate everything..

00:41

Was working yesterday at CWP instead..
Overall it was fine..
Met A for dinner..
Sadly, it was a short meetup as he has work tomorrow :(
A was lovely..
And I'm blessed to have him..
Super super blessed..

Just read a blog post regarding wedding..
Gosh..
Even though I've not planned any weddings or gotten married..
I TOTALLY FEEL HER!
What she said was so true..
It's also sad at the same time..
But what can be done?
Honestly..
Nothing..
It's such a sad world..
Sigh..

When you're a kid,
You wanna grow up quickly..
When you're a grown up,
You wish you can always be a kid..
Now that I've grown up,
I wanna do adult things that I've yet to do..
Doesn't that makes me a kid?